my last post was just so gloomy and, well, sucky.
i went out for a bit and have decided to have another go.

last night i went out with friends.
it was fun. good to get out of the apartment.
it was a night of melted chocolate, mushrooms and brilliant stories
about goats, toads and dead bodies in boxsprings.
im a little fucked up today.
i think that is why i was so miserable this morning.

just returned from my loan shark.
he and i share the same birthday.
we are on a first name basis, except i don't know his.
he is kind of attractive.
an angry and funny fellow who wears nice jeans.
we chatted about hating the sun.
he is paler than me.
yes, it is too possible.

i was invited to go skim boarding.
i do believe i will pass, though it would be nice to be on the beach.
but i may go to a bbq this evening.
thing is, it's all the way in kitsilano.
that's over a bridge.
across water.
may be too much for me.
but it will be a gorgeous evening and i rarely get to go to bbqs.
there will be good people and even better seafood.
i will play it by ear.
my lazy lazy ear.

i will, however, bake chocolate chip cookies.
haven't baked in ages.