Tuesday, January 02, 2007

2007?

Well, it's a new year. Boy, oh boy, last year was something wasn't it? For me, for the most part, it sucked. If I were to make a list and divide it down the centre with room for 'good stuff' on one side and 'bad stuff' on the other...well, it's as plain as the nose on my face! And if you've seen the nose on my face then you truly understand how obvious the answer is.

'Twas a year of particularly hard knocks: unemployment, betrayal and a challenging path to forgiveness (I'm still stumbling down this particular path), a family death and other nasty bouts of crisises.

Don't get me wrong, I had a laugh or two last year. It wasn't all bad. It's just that of all the years I've tucked under my expanding belt, this one was one of the worst. This past year did not make me a better person, I didn't learn any lessons that will make me happier or whole - but that's ok. That's what this year is for! I'm a big fan of resolutions, you see and my resolution this year is for life not to suck so much and I figure because last year was so shitty, I've nowhere to go but up. I mean, this year's resolution is as good as in the bag. Oh, and Fate - I know you're reading this - seriously, don't even THINK of fucking with me. For real. Consider yourself warned. Not this year. Not in my Canada.

Right, then. So, yeah. Better year. I'd like to recover a smidgen of my self-esteem and maybe learn to trust people again. I'd like to not have to wince when I hear the ringing of a cell phone in the night or when I walk past certain landmarks. I'd much prefer it if an open email or browsing history didn't make me feel sick to my stomach. I'd like to be a better friend. I'd like to heal and mend broken relationships - maternal, parental, etc and so on. Oh, and I'd like to lose 15 pounds, start smoking so that I can quit and make the world a better place.

God bless you everyone.

1 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

it's a do-over sort of.

1/03/2007 11:00 AM  

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